Enrichment? Let's see.

Note: Most of this was written at a different time then the rest, sorry.

Here I sit in 2nd block Economics doing what we do everyday, nothing. But next block, the fun begins. At Thomasville High School, we have "enrichment" classes. In other words, classes we pick that stimulate our minds with hobbies we like/enjoy.

Examples: Bass Tournment Fishing [Yes, we are very much in Alabama], chorus, and advanced sewing.

None of those things are really exciting to me... sorry guys. BUT, I do have one class I actually found I really enjoy; Psychology. I have to say, this class scares me. The first time the class met, I was 1 of 3 seniors in the class. Meaning, most of that class have no true feel of who they really are. In this first class, we took a personality test. I was the first person done with all 60 questions. [Very typical of me.] My results scares me out of my mind. Let me quote what it told me.

.....The agreeable nature and quiet personality makes them particularly vulnerable to hurt feelings. Distress within close relationships can shatter these types. Like all of this type under stress, they feel fragmented and lost.....

See? It basically told me I'm emotionally unstable.  Another thing?! It is typically true that girls get their personalities from their fathers. Well damn. Turns out my dad is little on the mentally insane side.

This class is telling me things about myself I don't want to hear.  I can't take something telling me I'm doomed from the start. Personality is a total product of Heredity and Environment. One can't be controlled while at my age, the other is hard to control.

So now it's my turn to try and "fix" my faults with my personality. This should be fun.
This is how I perceive myself.

I'm over emotional, angry, holds grudges, OCD, full of anxiety, and a procrastinator. What fun huh?

Now, people/things I'm thankful for right now.

1)Coach Anderson, my P.E. coach: You help me just by talking alot more then you think. I value opinion, and you always have a good one.

2)All my friends who always tell me the truth no matter the pain.

-Christi.

P.S. My ex is back in town. That should be the next blog.... :\

First Time for Everything.

Hello Friends. :)

This is the first "blog" I have posted in a long time. My friend Cameon said it makes her feel better... so I'm gonna give it a shot.

First off, today was a interesting day. Let's start two years ago. On December 6, 2008, a wonderful guy named Robert Davis came in my life.



We dated for 1 year and ALMOST 2 months. I loved that boy more then life itself. But, January 26, 2010 put an end to us. It hurt to say the least.  Now, on December 6, 2010... it hurts more than ever. I cried today. A lot has changed since that day two years ago. I am not the same girl. Then, I was a very independent 10th grader with no one by my side and didn't need someone to be. Today, I'm an independent, yet somewhat hurt 18 year old ready to go to college and get on with my life.

With college, friends, jobs, and etc ahead of me, why do I look to the past? Why can't I truly move on and be happy? Because I put everything into he and I... and now that's no longer. I will forever have my friends, family and my hobbies to keep me busy, but at night, it's me and the memories...


Another thing....

Sorry Cameon, but I'm stealing the section where you tell people what your thankful for. :)

1. I'm thankful for Raven Newton, Niki King, Haley Pugh, and Mariah Green. They have showed me that as long as you have one good friend, everything will be ok. Don't listen to whatever rumor 99% of everyone believes. As long as you know the truth, all is good.

2. College soon. 'Nuff Said.

3. My stepmom Amyee. I feels she loves me more then 75% of my real family.